vulnerable

Hello!

There's a first for everything...

It is about being fearlessly and relentlessly true to yourself.

So, here I am, attempting to write something that will interest people. I draw a blank. Before sitting down to write this entry, I had hundreds of ideas flowing through me. I thought, oh I could write about this or that. Did I write any of those ideas down? No, of course not. Now I sit here wishing that past Olivia would have taken the two minuets to write down a couple ideas. 

Fortunately, writing with no purpose sometimes gets the ideas flowing. We can all relate with doing something for the first time. There is a sense of nervousness, excitement and vulnerability. When I do something for the first time, I remind myself to be confident, soon this won't be a first anymore, enjoy the feeling of excitement and be in the moment. While I repeat those things to myself over and over, I am also shaking with nervousness, second guessing my every move, or word in this case, and hoping all turns out ok. 

Grow and be Vibrant  by Olivia Merritt at Balsam & Olive, LLC

Grow and be Vibrant by Olivia Merritt at Balsam & Olive, LLC

In my experience, most of the time firsts turn out ok and turn into seconds and then routines. Unfortunately, there are those firsts that go terribly wrong. Like the time I worked at In 'n Out Burger back in high school and I didn't turn off the shake dispenser. Ice cream spilled all over the floor... my worst fear had come true. Totally embarrassing... fortunately, I got to keep my job and that first day became a funny memory and a story. The embarrassment and vulnerability passed and I ended up working there for 5 years!

I guess what I am trying to say is don't be afraid to do something for the first time just because you might get embarrassed or do something wrong. Yes, you might end up totally screwing it all up... but, you might end up loving it. 

So, here's to my first blog entry. Don't hesitate. Live in the moment. Try something new.